here comes the sun

Heeeeeeey!

I don't remember when I said it, but I know I did... I said I was kind of bipolar...
Duuh, I know I'm not, but I change my mind like a bipolar!!!

Anyway...
Some changes (more of them) happened in my mind today and I suddenly decided to NOT go back to the gym.
I developed a certain will to redecorate my brother's room and make it mine! YEAH!
Hhuaauhahuauhahua, my house's pretty small... (or did I mean REALLY small?) And when I was little, my brother and I used to share the same room... we could put two beds in it, wich is impossible nowadays.
When I moved to my grams, my mom put only one bed in the bedroom and he kinda owned the place, despite the fact that my wardrobe's still there.
So, I decided to claim my rights and make it MINE for good. So I'm redecorating it and moving back. My bro can take my couch in the living room, I don't mind. And he wouldn't mind too, because if I didn't until now, why would he?

I'll finally have the room I always dreamed of since I was a kid! *___*
Can't wait to get home, take a shower and shut myself in my own world!
I'll write "Reinvent Love" on a wall! *__*

I'll make sure to post a photo here once it's done, but it will take a month or two yet... I'm not a rich person...

Oh, by the way, this sudden idea makes me even more tied up about money. But it's for a good reason. I don't plan to go out a lot anyway... so I must spend the next 2 or 3 months locked in my shell, figuring things I don't know yet...

That's it!
Bye y'all!

At the Moment: This Providence - An Ocean Between


EDIT:

It's been less than 12 hours since I posted and plans are already changing... not because of me... =/

I'm SO disappointed... =/

Write down this date: 15/06/2009

In this date (or week, at least), I'm going to get my second tattoo...
It's going to be even more idealist than the last one!!! And it's going to be great!!!

Anyway, let's catch things up...

My sunday was BORING, and by reading it, imagine me screaming it louder than my lungs can take...
If it wasn't for Desperate Housewives and Across the Universe, it would be 150% boring... even tough series and this movie make make me so damn happy, it's nothing new so...

I'm going back to the gym... probably tomorrow...
If I'm not going to the prep school than I'll get pumped at least... and prepare myself to college in August...

Guess that's it...

At the Moment: Dana Fuchs Band - Dear Prudence (Across the Universe OST)

In topics:

- took my sister to the subway, it was her first time in it;
- watched Across the Universe (for the xxxx time) with my cousin;
- Starbucks with my cousin, it was her first time;
- got totally wet because of the fucking rain;
- went to the mall;
- talked a loooooot with a friend in the mall, and ran into an old one I haven't seen for a while;
- got stuck in the mall while trying to go home.

And now, thinking about the day and listening again to Waste Myself, I realize I'm kinda lonely...

At the Moment: This Providence - Waste Myself

"Oh we could lie beneath the stars
Or watch a thousand passing cars
From the roof of this prison, yeah yeah

Oh we could make this moment ours
And I could hold you, touch your scars
I can't believe that I have you, yeah yeah

I said... you, I waste myself on you
You, I do anything for you
Yeah, waste myself on you, yeah yeah"

I miss having feelings like these...

At The Moment: This Providence - Waste Myself

Yeah, being a doctor will have to wait...

Money's really an issue... :S

At The Moment: Britney Spears - Shadow

In one of my latest posts I said I wanted the 60's back...
Well, I still do...

I mean, if you look back, I guess those were the years when peace and love were estimated the most.
Of course, there was the war...

The difference between those years and now is that war still between us, happening in front of our eyes, in a lot of different ways, that I won't even bother mentioning because I can't count them in my fingers and things get complicated.
But the world today is so caught up with material life, and sometimes, when I stop and think about it, I'm so sick of that!
You can't avoid being material sometimes. Even myself, writing this whole thing for those of you who have guts enough to take my bitter dreamy words, have my material moments and my material flaws. We surely need to caught up with the world we live in.

But I wish people loved more... and throw themselves in the (good) unknown part of life.
I wanted to be one of those hippie guys... of course I'd take a shower every now and then, and I must admit drugs don't attract me... but their ideas... their way of going through life...
Sometimes I want to throw everything in the air and just run away, to a place in my dreams where I could just lay in the grass... stare at the sunshine until it fade out in a lovely twilight and I could start to count the stars... then sleep and wake up in the next day just to start it all over; with nothing else to worry about...

Guess I'm what they call an "old fashioned romantic dreamer"... and unfortunately, the world today doesn't estimate these kind of people...

Don't know if you got my point... sometimes I can't put it into words and sometimes I don't even get myself...

And as the stars I was counting in my dream place blows up in my face in the form of the junkie paper work I have to do while I sit here and write this, I offer you my peace and love wishing that someday we'll have the 60's sensations and values back...



"Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world"

At The Moment: The Beatles - Across The Universe

For those who don't know, the "Permanent Monday" part of the title is a song by Jordin Sparks... great song, by the way...
And the "mmm, not actually" part because time really flew by today!

Yesterday I was too tired or too lazy to post and saturday I kinda slept all day when I got home!
Mmm, let's see...

I woke up LATE on saturday but I got to the school in time and did the test... it was ok, I guess... I mean, I guess I did fine on portuguese, bio, english and geography... totally screwed up in chemistry and history... and worked my way out of physics and math.
After the test, we went to Starbucks, had some fraps and then I came home and slept aaaaall afternoon.
I woke up, watched Across The Universe (again) with my mom and I cried (again) with my mom crying beside me, huauhauhauhahua...
Then I took a shower, changed clothes, got my hair done and went to Sogo, wich by the way totally surprised me this saturday!!!! It was crowded and the music was greaaaaaaat!!!! I loved it!!!
Got crazy when So What started!!!

Got home when it was about 8 am on sunday, took a shower and most likely passed out in my brother's bed. No, I wasn't sleeping in the same bed that he was; he spent the night in the living room...
Woke up a few hours later, had lunch, tried to sleep a bit more and couldn't because of the fucking hot weather... went to my cousin's birthday party, came back home, and watched Marley & Me with my mom... my mom cried in the end... So did I... again...

And here I am in the office and I have a stomachache and I really wanna go home though I'm thinking of maybe staying here a little bit more...

I guess that's it...

xoxo

At The Moment: Evan Rachel Wood - If I Feel (Across the Universe OST)

PS: because of the latest "bipolar trouble", posts have been edited... but nothing really important, I feel better doing it! ^^

~~~~~~ Jai Guru Deva om